Hardest blog

Even though I discovered EFT late in life,I still deeply and completely love and accept myself,believe in and respect myself.

This is the hardest of all the blogs to write in.Maybe because it is a bit more limited,or maybe because it comes nearer to the roots of the problem/s.Maybe because it requires more intimate honesty..or maybe because it is just plain boring!
Whatever,reiterating stuff that I've done today for instance is a bit of a drag.But..e.g. I awoke with some of the old 'marron'.. (this is a Spanish expression for the 'blues' I suppose you could say,but it is literally the 'brown'..and .. that is the sort of colour I attribute to this feeling/state.) .. there was fear and negativity and somehow I quickly (!..I don't know I may have been lying there one hour to get to this point ..doing different eft stuff) .. got to something about prayers and so on "Even though I don't want to turn my beliefs into actions." .. or something to that effect. Well..not long later ..(despite a heavy cold/flu) I was up..and doing the night prayers,followed by a full fajr.
I had a couple of bits of toast..prayed sunrise prayer and,after about half an hour on the net and a quick post in one of my blogs,went back to bed and slept for between two and three hours (something that I have always found nearly impossible after being up at that time..wether the EFT has anything to do with regulating my sleep I don't know..or wether I am just getting older perhaps?)
Anyway,when I did get up again it was rather a heavy start again .. and I did some more eft on that though I don't remember what now.
Most of the stuff is around lack of action..(ah yes I think it was on fear and insecurity..no own home etc) .. and recently I've been getting bored with the net and wanting to do something.
I don't remember now if I did any more eft on this but I did end up going out of the front door ..hosing a bit off the car that I missed yesterday and then watering the roses and other plants around the house and then starting to weed out the beds and eventually getting the shears and the rake and cutting all the grass around the house too.As I raked up the grass I also did the leaves from the nispero which are enormous and rather ugll and,the ones from the avacado (ditto).I must say it looks much better now and I feel like doing more.
Tuesday is over and fading away now..(it's after maghrib or sunset and that is the beginning of a new day in Islamic terms).
That'll do for now..no more cogitations or conclusions for the moment..